Its exams again. And I'm here once more, lamenting on how I simply cannot focus, on how I am going to fail tomorrow's paper. Every exam I take one step closer to the failing mark, ten marks towards it and now it seems as if it is finally time. Finally time for me to fail. And I know this for a fact cause its 12.18am and I haven't completed one out of the twelve chapters of Bio. But I'm thinking, of the people in my life. The people who whizzed in and out faster than I could say 'hello', the people who unconsciously made a difference in my life. It is strange, isn't it? Strange that someone that one was never close to, could have changed one's perspective. Strange that your best friend may have never even altered your life at all. Strange how a relationship can change in a matter of weeks because of that.
I feel calm now. Slowly embracing the way the keys lower beneath my fingers, the familiar dull thud their movements create. Go away, bittersweet infatuation, I want to indulge in familiarity, in the people I loved and currently love. Why won't you leave me alone? Why do my spirits thrive on this blind madness?
I wonder if the day when I can arrange all my mind's intricate musings into focus will ever come. I seemingly leap from one subject to another at alarming velocity and inaccuracy.
PS- For once the picture above is not a hidden symbol of underlying emotions. Ah. :)
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